In the first part, Sameer told InfoMigrants about his marriage, divorce and escape after he was exposed as a homosexual man. In the second part of his story, he talks about how his situation nearly drove him to suicide and how he managed to get out of the country.

I left and was in a terrible state. I wanted to go away and hide somewhere and I hoped some angel would come down from the heavens and rescue me. I went straight to the police station. The police officer was a Muslim and I told him I was being threatened by my relatives and to please help me. He used the same insult and said, "Didn’t you think of your honor when you were an Imam? You preferred being a [swearword] gay! Get lost and we don’t have any protection."

For part 1 of Sameer's story, click here. 

I was helpless and on the verge of committing suicide. I sent a message to my friends saying, "I am very sorry if I have done anything to hurt you in my life." I also wrote to the gay volunteer in the UK and thanked him for his support and said I couldn’t live any longer like this. Immediately, he called me and spoke to me for about one and a half hours and calmed me down. He said he'd find a way to get me to Europe. He then called up the local gay group and they sent someone to be with me.

The UK friend called and said someone could host me in Germany and he would send me a ticket. I didn’t need a visa to travel to the European Union. He said a woman LGBT volunteer had agreed to host me in Cologne. In Cologne I stayed for three months. I signed up for a group that was active with LGBT members and also visited the headquarters of the Liberalislamistischer Bund (Liberal Islamic Union) in Germany. I found it very touching that they accepted me despite knowing that I was gay. I even led Ramadan prayers once. I can't explain the emotions that I experienced at that moment.

I applied for asylum three months after I came to Germany. We found a lawyer. I was then sent to refugee shelters in Trier and then Bitburg. In Bitburg, I was attacked by a Syrian refugee because I was gay and then I came to Mainz. Even in the refugee camp at Mainz, I suffered because other refugees kept taunting me for my sexuality.

I now live in a shared apartment and have a partner, who lives close to Cologne. I am active with Rainbow Refugees, which works with LGBT migrants. I had found a job but the foreigners' office has not given me permission to work. I get social aid and live on it. It's been two years but my application has still not been processed.

I have written several letters and Emails to the Federal Office for Migration and Refugees (BAMF), but they haven’t responded. They don’t care, I could be dead or alive, they wouldn’t be bothered. But personally I am active for gay rights. I am also working on homosexual activism from an Islamic perspective, because I don’t want any other Muslim LGBT to suffer the way I did.


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